Sorry I have not written a blog post in a while. I have had some personal issues to deal with. As it is mental health awareness week. I thought I would open up my mind for you all and tell you what’s been going on.
I may or may not have mentioned in previous blogs that I have PTSD and Anxiety. As I am sure many of you are aware having these can make you feel inadequate and for me personally it’s felt like I have two minds, my normal mind that is happy up for anything and is planning for the future and then this out of body brain that is insecure scared snaps at the most terrible moments! Hi I can publicly say I am extremely ashamed of my ‘PTSD’ mind.
The last few weeks in therapy have been quite difficult as I have been working through some of the reasons why I have these mental conditions. It has been really helpful and has opened my mind a great deal but as a consequence of these sessions my emotions have been like a rollercoaster as my mind tries to process everything correctly!
I have made wrong decisions and not recognised myself at all! I would like to say sorry I didn’t mean the things that I have done or said! My emotions have to process everything and I have channeled completely wrong but I have got them under control now!
I am pleased to say that I feel more human again and that my PTSD and Anxiety brain is coming under control now and I’m feeling more Brightsidebecs again everyday!
For everyone that is struggling it’s ok not to be ok and you are not a failure which I myself have been feeling lately. Talk to someone/ anyone ask for help you will soon see the light at the end of a the storm cloud tunnel I promise!